Friend

I never realized growing up how wonderful growing up in a small town really is. 

I grew up in a town of about 2,400 people. I went to school with most of the same people from preschool to my senior year of high school. I had a large group of friends and yes we did have our moments when we want to kill each other but we were right back friends quickly after. 

I had a lot of trying times growing up, but nothing that most teenagers don't go through. I battled with depression through out high school amongst other things. But my true friends were right with me the entire time. After graduation we all went our different ways, and lost touch. Well at least I have lost touch with most. 

When I moved to Dallas I never dreamed how difficult it would be for me to make friends. I have lived here for almost 8 years and still don't have that best friend I LONG for. I have meet people here and there but nothing ever seems to come of it. I want that friend I can call when I'm having a bad day and just talk, I want that friend who has kids and can relate to the daily struggles that come along with raising a child as well and the joy it brings. I want that friend that I can go shopping with or go to a movie. But more than anything I want to be those things for someone else too.

I'm to the point where I often wonder what is wrong with me, why do people not want to be that friend. I'm finding it even more difficult as I get older that its harder and harder to find that right group of people I fit in with. I never had the "college experience" and times like these make me regret that so much. But what I wanted to do didn't allow for me to go to a traditional college. So here I am in my mid 20's and literally spend most days at home with my kids and get out to only go some just for the heck of it. 

This post probably isn't going to help matters at all but I know that I am not the only person who has ever felt like this. At least I hope I'm not.